Because this is hard. Newborns are not easy, and this is our easiest one. But things are getting better. Right before thanksgiving I got sick, could not eat or drink, and became dehydrated to the point of needing IV fluids in the ER. Lack of sleep was not helping, but that too is evening out. School work is pretty basic but gaining ground. In fact everything is in basic mode: dinner, laundry, shopping, cleaning. I'm blessed to have friends and family calling to check on me and dropping off needed items. Thank you so much for caring for all of us!